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It's really a matter of free will as to whether or not I'm on the precipice of freedom or torture. I'm finding myself wondering: "What must be done for happiness to become tangible"?  "How much internal grief is tolerable, and is the coping of such grief an unavoidable life occurrence"?  "Does grief or struggle provide balance, or promote inertia"? For the past two days I've been sleeping irregularly, almost like a vampire slayer.  Up extremely early and a nap in mid-day, followed by an early evening retirement and 2-4am rising.  At least when my schedule allots, otherwise it's an 'eat and sleep as you are' scenario. 7+ years is a long tim

I recently saw a documentary on the 'Children of Men' dvd and one thing that has really been on my mind is the concept of a boat floating on the water. The doc mentions that a boat adrift at sea symbollically represents a release from the land, like a tree that has no roots. All you have is the boat, the foundation you have created before setting adrift.  If the boat sinks, you're fucked.  But, if the boat is allowed to safely roam or navigate, then perhaps freedom is upon you? -- I'd say I'm still stressed as a general rule.  Bouts of sadness and indecision surfacing regularly. However, I am resolved that in order to truly understand my

It's Friday March 6th and after watching Tropic Thunder and Rambo on a Thursday night, It's 3:25 and I was up 1/2 hour ago. Clarity is coming, I can feel it.  Of course impatience and the ever-present concept of 'anything can and will happen' is floating about the mind, but at the same time I believe life has come to this for a reason. By this I mean solitude, time to be alone and appreciative of it. There have been a few keywords that makeup my life lately:  1) Roller Coaster, 2) Separation, 3)Wavering, 4)Committment, 5)Validation, and more than any other: 6) Frozen. A lot, wouldn't you say?  Of course these are primarily the negative in